1:27 AM
alone* in the rain;
today was kind of one my hardest days in school. pano ba naman kse,wala ako sa tamang pag iisip kanina. i failed my cl quiz, which is my second failed quiz, and which is also our second quiz for the qtr...that means,yung first two quizzes ko, bagsak. so what can i say dba?cl na nga lang, bagsak bagsak pa ko. grabe, i think ms malayas is watching over my changes. ang tamad tamad ko ng mag aral grabe. isa pa, noli is kind of hard for me.first of all, it's hard to study na iba iba yung libro niyo.eh yung ginagamit kong libro, yung pinabili ng school, na medyo kulang kulang. eh what can i learn from a book na kulang kulang? eh di pati utak ko nyan kulang kulang din ang alam. so there, i have to read uhhhh, 2 books para lng sa isang subject.eh if i only have the choice,hndi ako magbabasa..kaya lng,ako mahihirapan.eh ayun.galing kse ni rizal eh. grabe. so yun yun yun. kanina na naman, umiral na naman ang pagkasakitin ko. so, kanina, naka jacket ako maghapon kahit nakabilad kami sa field. bakit? eh kse naman, sobrang ang lamig ng feeling ko. so there, i need something to give me warmth. ayos. :) idagdag pa ang hugs and kisses of my biatches. :) thanks friends. :p grabe, problema ko tlaga yung cl ko.nalulugmok na ko. haha. mantakin mong yun pa yung subject na nakakapagpabagabag sa aking isipan. yan ang sinasabi ko, pag pinagbabasa ng noli...napapatagalog ng makaluma. yun yun ehhhh. sana lng tlga. haaaay. oh well, i can get over this. go meeee! kaya ko to. next time tlga, mag aaral na tlga ko. as in aral. hndi aral na buklat tpos sara agad. yung aral na as in nahihilo ka na. haha. :) ganyan pala yun ha, cge cge.
so ayun yun. bukas, intrams na namin..so medyo maluwag ang schedule ng mga tao. ay, onga pla...thanks to trixie for lending me the jacket. love you bangs. mwah! :)
tpos tpos, dito ko na rin sasabihin yung mga gusto kong sabihin sa mga tao.
syempre, una si ronabel marquez na mas kilala sa tawag na beloi.
beloi: thanks sa seat. haha :) love you
hannah: thanks sa pepsi. mahahawaan na kita. :) love you.
april: magbasa-basa ka nga ng noli! puro biik sagot mo.umayos. love you biatch
trixie: i like to dance this life with you. haha. ahhhh! mwah bangs love you
so cge, that's all for today. *bow*
1:49 AM
alone* in the rain;
oha oha oha! pumasok pa rin ako kahit hindi maganda ang pakiramdam ko.bait dba?san ka pa? :) so today, wala namang masyadong nangyari, i just heard about a news..and i can firmly say..na that news sucks!aba naman..ibababalik daw yung pagtake ng mga 4th yr students ng exams para matest if they're really ready to go on with college life.eh hello,mukhang napagdaanan na rin ata ng panahon yan, pero ngayon lang ibinalik ulit?isn't that..uh...unreasonable, i guess?kasi naman naman naman eh. :) oh well,kaya niyo yan geysh!so that means,putting into consideration that we are in junior yr, and we're going to be the next seniors nxt yr, we'll go through the same obstacle before we can finally say that whoa, we're done with high school, or must i say...we're ready to unfold a new chapter in our lives?oh well, maybe there's a good reason behind this, so pls..i need you guys to explain that "GOOD" reason of yours. come come come, explain, and we'll give you your worst nightmare. haha. warfreak. basta, kahit anong mangyari, 4th yr schoolmates, i know na kaya niyo yan!taga-holy kayo,and i know you can do it, no sweat pa nga eh. :) haha.
so ayun. kaninang PE, i was FORCED to play volleyball again. wag na kayong magtaka kung bakit hindi ako makaserve, well guys, i really suck in volleyball. basketball na lang pare guys. :) haha. and, and. softball, pwede rin. haha. as of this morning,i can feel that i am recovering na. oha. medyo okay na ko ngayon, and i can already move as if nothing really happened nung saturday night.haha.so so so. what can i say?mukhang bumabalik na naman ako sa makulit na nadine ha. oh well, that goes along with the term MOVING ON. haha.
as of now,maganda ang aking feeling. :) it's like..i'm a kid again..like,don't have to worry about the future, like..i don't need to think about complicated things in life...like, i don't need to get stressed out, or must i say, i don't need to feel any pain.ayun yun eh. walang pain. HAHA. how i wish wala talaga. but oh well, it's fun fun fun to worry about the future, to think about complicated things, to get stressed out, or must i say...IT'S FUN TO FEEL THE PAIN..take your fair share of the world's pain, guys.. :) i took mine..i and i've gone through every step of it...and i now i can say that i'm ready to face another one. GO ME!!!
wow. i'm a grown-up now. haha. :) iba na sinasabi ko..nawawala na sa dapat sabihin. haha. :) sige sige. :)
---remembering...when it's gone. :)---
1:00 AM
alone* in the rain;
so this post is really dedicated to someone.yeah,friends...you know who the person is.i know,kung sino ka man..ikaw ang unang papasok sa utak ng mga tao pag nabasa nila to.yes, i told them that i'm over you.hindi mo nga nalaman na i even felt something for you, and now i want you to know na that feeling is over.so so over.you can say na i'm too fast to let the feeling go.but i understand the fact that believing something like this, is kind of hard to reach..and i don't really want to hurt myself from doing that. :) don't worry..i'm okay.so so okay.syempre sa una hindi, pero habang tumatagal..nakakasawa rin kasing makaramdam ng isang bagay na you aren't even sure of it.yes, yes, yes...i wasn't even sure of it.but somehow...i guess,lessons learned.in a hard way?maybe not.in a complicated way?better term i guess.we belong to different worlds :)
it lasted for how long???uhmm..matagal din siguro.haha.basta, okay na ko sa ganito.buti na lang i didn't love you.kung hindi..kung hindi....tsssss. mas mahirap yon.haha.friends,i know that this is a mix of good and bad news..pero pero pero..ganun tlaga. haha. :) sabi nga ni patty,i just have to wait for the right one. someone whom we deserve, and someone who deserves us.maybe it won't be tomorrow,or the day after tomorrow,or even the day after the day of tomorrow..but we'll wait. :)
so friends,learn from me. haha. :)
12:52 AM
alone* in the rain;
so yesterday, na meet ko ang man of my dreams. haha. o kung hndi man of my dreams, siguro i want my man of my dreams to be like him. dr. sean trillanes is hot hot hot. haha! for now, yan lang muna, medyo nanghihina pa ko. need to take some rest. haha. i could have asked for his number. yuck...haha!
6:56 PM
alone* in the rain;
i can finally say that i have finally moved on from all the things that went on. bago diba? from all my recent posts, wala akong ginawa kung hndi hilingin na i want to move on. at last, the waiting is over. finally, i have moved on.buti na lng,i saved myself from "transforming" into someone na hndi ako.natauhan ako in other words.tsaka,i deserve to be happy and i know in my heart na dapat akong maging masaya because i've been doing great.ever since my "doomsmonth", which was the month of november,problems have been invading my mind.pati yung hndi problema, naging problema.i can't say na wala akong regrets, since hello..one month yung sinayang ko sa buhay ko to have fun..i mean..i was having fun, i went on with my life, i dealt with things, i handled what are supposed to be handled,i acted normal,i believed in myself like i used to..but the emptiness..oh yeah, that's the right term. lecheng emptiness.even if people see me laughing all the time,they can't see what's beyond that.hndi nila nakikita that i'm actually not okay..trying to be one, i guess..and i have succeeded na ipakita sa kanila na masaya ako kahit hndi.and now,i don't need to wear a mask to let them see what they have to see.friends,okay na okay na ko.goodbye doomsmonth! :) past is past. i'll leave you behind. i'll leave all the bad memories behind. thanks for teaching me how to be wise.
haha.nakakasira ng pag aaral pag iniisip ang hindi dpat isipin.ang nakakatawa lang talaga,i actually prayed for an INSPIRATION..aba, ang dumating..distraction.okay lang yun, rhyming words naman eh.at least at least.basta,dahil sa doomsmonth na yan, nakilala ko ang mga taong dapat kong makilala.ganun kabilis, ganun kaaga.ganun kawirdo, ganun kawalang-kwenta,at ganun kawalang-silbi ang ibang mga pangyayari.pero sa lahat lahat ng yan,masaya ko kasi mukhang magiging masaya ako sa mga susunod na kabanata.magiging plastic ako kung hndi ko rin sasabihin na nasaktan ako sa ibang mga nangyari, pero ganun tlaga.i won't learn kung hndi ako nasaktan.cguro,God was just testing me.to have a little share of the world's pain, i guess.i'm glad i had my fair share..and to tell you honestly,masarap din palang magkaroon ng sunud-sunod na problema.nakikita mo kasi yung silbi mo sa mundo.nakikita mo kng anong dpat baguhin,kung anong dpat palitan,kng anong dpat kalimutan.parang,nakita ko kung bakit ko kelangan pagdaanan lahat yan.i know, the pain was something that was hard to forget about, but at least..things are serving their purpose.at, at..i never asked God why these things happened..as in never.because i know,may mali din ako.sabi nga ni zyera,"bakit ka magugulat or magtataka, eh ginawa mo yan eh". eh yun.and now i am starting to feel this piece of heaven in my life.cliche as it may sound to you guys, pero tlagang pag nasaktan ka,kelangan mo lang mag move on.that's just how things work.that's the way of life.tanggapin ang dapat tanggapin, sundin ang dapat sundin.
dahil dyan, i was struck by what ate ilare sent me.it was a txt message..sapul ako dun, mehn.i sent her joke kse,and then when i pressed on the key of my phone to read her reply,aba..ang reply nya..patama. haha.hindi sya tumawa sa jokes na sinend ko..nagsend ng malupit na txt message na konti na lng, sasabog na ata yung puso ko. haha. grabe ba?nakalagay dun parang, we don't have to wake up on mornings with regrets..love the people who treat you right..FORGET ABOUT THE ONES WHO DON'T..and believe that everything happens for a reason.grabe,as i was moving on to every word, parang that message was from God.ay grabe tlaga.parang may mga anghel sa tabi tabi na ayaw magpakita.haaay.ibang level to ha.oh well. oh well. basta..kalimutan ang dpat kalimutan. :) i don't have to reminisce the past..because i might feel the pain again. haha. okay na ko..and i hope things will stay this way.
+i'll take my chances. if they can change my life, i'll let it.+
+i'll go beyond my horizons, and i'm going to let the world know that i also deserve to be happy+
6:22 PM
alone* in the rain;
just had a heart to heart talk with my friend zyera. seryoso yung pag uusap namin sa ym, since we don't have much time in school to talk about our lives, and how things have been turning.ngayon na lng kme nag usap ng ganito ka seryoso ever since we entered junior year.ayun, nag usap kme about things, and i highlighted the things that are meant to be said.as usual, madrama kme.iba ka tlga zyera. :) i miss you so so so much.:)sabi ko rin sa kanya that i've been doing good,because that's the truth.grabe. :) love you zyera!i miss second yr!
nga pala, nagkalagnat ako kagabi. 39. oha. :)
1:41 AM
alone* in the rain;
wala pa kong pahingang matino! grabe. pano ba naman kasi, ang ingay ng mga tao dito. haha. kasi nandito lolo and lola ko,so yun..kaya super ingay. pero masaya naman. :) parang wala akong problema. nakakalimutan ko. :) kagabi, we also had the chance to spend time with some of our cousins since birthday ng tita namin. :) eh yun.parang, december 1..so it's kind of brand new start. haha. di ko rin masyado favorite yun ha. :P so yeah, kahapon din..nagpagupit ako..my hair's short na, thanks to miss jiejie of david's. nagmukha nga lang akong bata sa buhok ko, pero okay na yun. :) masaya na rin ako ngayon kasi alam kong dapat akong maging masaya. magulo ba? haha. :)
look to this day for it is life :) oha. ---kalidasa's salutation to the dawn. :)
3:04 PM
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